Eternal Autumn
Verse 1
After the sun and moon have fallen from a darkened sky
And the only star still shining is the twinkle in your eye
I’ll watch the lines between the seasons blur then fade away
Orange, red, and yellow will replace the pallid grey
I’ll be caught up in a dream more real than anything I’ve known
Too enraptured by your gaze to notice streets of gold
I’ll mean it when I say, “My life is yours and yours is mine”
When I see you as you are, her name will never come to mind
Chorus
Eternal autumn
But never winter
The leaves have fallen
But never wither
Into the sunset
We’ll walk together
Forever
Verse 2
After the assembly, please beckon me aside
And lead me to a secret place that no one else can find
With cherry blossoms falling like confetti on the wind
The harbinger of springtime amidst autumn woven in
On a bed of fallen leaves we’ll consummate our love
So lost in passion, I’ll forget I’m not the only one
Cause you’ll call me by a name that no one else will know but me
And I’ll behold you in a way that no one else can see
::Repeat Chorus::
One day we’ll burn these letters…
::Repeat Chorus 2x::
Hope Deferred
Chorus A
I wish I would have died when I still had a shred of faith
Cause I’ll never recover, I’ll never move on
I just lower my standard of living each day
Growing older and colder away from the Son
Prove me wrong
Verse 1
Of late I’ve grown accustomed to this dreary ashen sky
Familiar with this sickening sensation in my gut
Indifferent to the scenery that used to catch my eye
Unphased by haunting melodies that used to stir my heart
Chorus B
So now…
I wish I would have died when I still had a shred of faith
Cause I’ll never recover, I’ll never move on
I just lower my standard of living each day
With my chances of falling in love slim to none
Prove me wrong
Verse 2
The truth – an iron maiden imploring to embrace
I feel the sting of sunburn; then I try to fathom hell
I know that I’m a sinner; please don’t rub it in my face
I always have and always will care only for myself
Please prove me wrong
Bridge
Now I’m so desperate,
I’ll share our secrets
With anyone who’ll listen
Then afterwards regret it
Muttering curses under my breath
I clench my teeth but venom spills through my gap
While maggots of bitterness, gnawing unchecked,
Gnash their maws at the ones I should love but can’t stand
Chorus C
So now…
I wish I would have died when I still had a shred of faith
Cause I’ll always look back and I’ll never be cured
You know I can’t get through to you; would you get through to me?
Don’t let me slip beyond your reach, past the point of no return
I wish I would have died when I still had a shred of faith
Cause I’m losing control and I’ll never be pure
You know I can’t hold on to you; would you hold on to me?
Don’t let me slip beyond your reach, past the point of no return
Callipolis
Verse 1
Why do I get the impression there’s no room in heaven
For Byronic Heroes and other such leaven?
Nor childhood sweethearts, nor hopeless romantics,
Nor lovers, nor dreamers, nor fantasy addicts
Chorus
Check our hearts at the pearly gates
Check our hearts at the pearly gates
I can’t shake the impression we can’t bring
such hearts through the eye of a needle
Verse 2
Our aesthetics are worthless, our muses are devils,
Our dreams are all chaff, our analogies idols,
Our passions distractions, our tragedies carnal,
Our fantasies gateways to all kinds of evil
::Repeat Chorus::
Bridge
I know you know what’s best for me
So why do I get the impression that we
Have to check our hearts at the pearly gates?
::Repeat Chorus 2x::
Yukimi
It’s true I often used to wish I were entirely alone
Waiting for the falling snow to take me in his arms
Then I could cling to none but him and open up to no one else
He’ll have gossamer, spun-silver hair and eyes like dying stars
The more complete my loneliness,
The more romantic my deliverance
My wish for loneliness has been granted
Soon I will be banished from the only place where I feel at home
The sight of youth and beauty fills me with anguish
As I leave that world behind, I realize I’ve almost outgrown hope
No peak, no point, no meaning – I don’t want it any other way
Even if the falling snow will melt with but a touch
I will surrender to his smile
A fateful meeting gilded by the setting sun
My wish for loneliness has been granted
Soon I will be banished from the only place where I feel at home
The sight of youth and beauty fills me with envy
As I leave that world behind, I realize I’ve outgrown hope
My wish for loneliness has been granted
When I’m with my closest friends, I feel like a foreigner
I’m sick from utter alienation
Now I finally realize no one’s coming to save me after all
Don’t fall in love with love itself
Patiently wait for the first snow…
GRAVITY
Verse 1
Don’t tell me to be reasonable
A break-up is the end of the world.
But this time, I don’t want to recover,
Don’t want to move on,
Never want to feel better
This time isn’t like all the rest –
It can’t be. Though I’ve gotta confess:
The others meant as much to me once
As this does to me now
And look – I still recovered
Chorus
I don’t want to fall in love again
I want this ghost to haunt me ’til the bitter end
Because if love is really irresistible,
How can I reconcile having to let this go?
Verse 2
“Stay healthy – it’s not good to be lovesick”
“Don’t put all your eggs in one basket”
Spare me. You domesticate love
‘Til it’s doctor approved
So it’s safe for the masses
Bring back good old-fashioned obsession
Love is an irrational passion
Fall prey to consuming addiction
Chaotic and needy
Unsafe and unhealthy
::Repeat Chorus::
Bridge
You airbrush out all traces of chaos and codependency
Cause our self-reliance, health, and happiness take priority
We can’t all be rock-stars or Romeos; some must be mundane
Oh, but I refuse to outlive ‘true love’ again – To hell with restraint
::Repeat Chorus::
Final Chorus
No, I don’t want to fall in love again
I want this ghost to haunt me ’til the bitter end
Because if love is really irresistible,
How can I reconcile being able to let go?
Intervals
Verse 1
Running laps around the track
My legs give out, my lungs collapse
I’ll run ’til night; I’ve run since dawn
The sun beats down; I can’t go on
I boast about how fast I am
But this is one race I can’t win
Because with every step I take
I become everything I hate
Verse 2
So you may ask why I’m still here
Something the coach said makes me fear:
That there’s a sniper on the roof
And if I stop he’s gonna shoot
Is this a bluff or is it true?
Who should I trust? I wish I knew
Another system of control
Conform or Santa brings you coal
Chorus
I’m falling behind
I can’t afford to waste time
This indecision
Is robbing me blind
Questions and doubt
Are bombarding my mind
But I’m too scared to search,
So afraid what I’ll find
Verse 3
My feet feel like they weigh a ton
To think the race has just begun
Or is the race all in my mind?
My thoughts too tangled to unwind
My motives leave me in the dust
A lap behind, I can’t keep up
I’m too clever for my own good
I can’t go back; I know I should
::Repeat Chorus::
Chorus B
Cause I’ve counted the cost
And I don’t have what it takes
I can’t give everything
I can’t carry this weight
It took more than I have
Just to give what I did
I can’t give anymore
It’s a burden to live
Verse 4
I never meant to disappoint;
I hate to trample on your hope
I wish I were as sure as you
About the truth, about the tone
If I’d been taught a different faith
And never questioned what was said
I’d die believing in a “myth”
Buying into a “lie” instead
::Repeat Chorus A and Chorus B::
Finale
Please forgive me!